~My Thoughts~

I don't quite know what I want from you,
and I don't quite know if you care.
You tell me that you still love me,
and you'll always be there.
I can't help but wonder if you're just telling me,
what you think I want to hear.
I wish it wern't so hard for me to express
the way I feel for you,
but know I have fellings deep enough to swim in
and they're all for you.
My love,
pure and true!

All That I Am

I am nothing but a scared
little girl moments away from a
relapse.

Some say my drug of choice
is my blade,
because I am a sadest.

In truth,
My drug of choice is anything that brings
pain driven by my desire to
forget.

To forget any and everything from
my past
that has caused me to hurt myself.

Honestly,
all that I am is a mystery.
Even to me!

My Eyes

They say the eyes are the window to the soul,
But why doesn't anyone see the pain mine hold.
Does everyone just ignore me and brush me to the side.
Or does everyone keep quiet to shelter my pride.
My eyes give away so much more than my words
because what you see, is much more than you heard.
The tears that fall from these eyes give away much more than pain.
They also allow you to see the complete and utter disdain.
Held for the life i live deep down inside,
only being revealed through
My Eyes.