All That I Am

I am nothing but a scared
little girl moments away from a
relapse.

Some say my drug of choice
is my blade,
because I am a sadest.

In truth,
My drug of choice is anything that brings
pain driven by my desire to
forget.

To forget any and everything from
my past
that has caused me to hurt myself.

Honestly,
all that I am is a mystery.
Even to me!